vicissitude

'' come, give thy soul a loose, and taste the pleasure of vicissitude ''

Today was different.

Amazed i was.

Good?

Bad?

Time is needed for adjustment.

To me,

keep it up =)

Transformation has been taken placed right now, it's a pleasure.

the eagle nebula.

Fairy tail

i am addicted to you tube one more time.

k, great music i am not selfish to let it to be shared with you guys.

Thank you shu fang, she 's the one who introduced it to me.

XD

The piano

breathe~

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

White horse

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princessThis ain't a fairytaleI'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Baby I was naíve,Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance,
My mistake, I didn't know,
To be in love you had to fight to get the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

another taylor swift's song

when it comes to an end

It's 2.10am and i am not sleepy at all. i did not even give myself a try to figure the root of it. Honestly, i dont feel bad at all as i know that next week onwards im gonna to stay up late everyday. Let it be a self preparation. Ah, i just forgot to tell my best buddies that i am taking part in cheer leading recently. That Jeanne was so suprised and blamed me that i did not update them about it on the Wednesday's outing. I am sorry, to Jeanne, Wan Cheen and Sze Ching. And yeah, don't be too worried, i will try my best to take care of my safety, come to think of it, i feel myself is so fortunate to have such caring friends like you guys. Nah, especially you Jeanne, you just reminded me that i should not take this risk as it may ( i am not sure since my doctor always says that i can do everything and nothing that i have to avoid from but i have to make sure that i need to swim gradually. i guess i should really squeeze out at least half an hour to swim. To keep my words, i just thrown my swimming suits into my luggage bag. ==) have slightly brought pressure on my backbone. Dancing nia la..

To Jess in Aus, Sze Ching just came back from national service. She cut her hair short and it suits her =). She looks younger, urmm, all of us agreed that she's just like a form4 teen right now. Like how Seng Peng described her national service's life to us last time, Sze Ching did have 5 meals per day. Cool (chin). Then we went for a movie, Step Up 3. It's a Must Watch!!! The story might not be attractive however the dancing, the routine, the people aka the dancers, performances just hooked us! Funny to tell you that we even stayed in the theater to watch the guy playing with his fingers although the show actually ended. Hehe, did you watch it in Aus? i 'd recommend you to watch it in 3D ^^...Ah, for your information, 16th of September was announced as Malaysia Day by our PM, and by this year onwards this day will be marked as public holiday in our calender. Oh, she did tell us something which's quite interesting =D, but im not gonna to tell you here. hehe..We planned to go out again on the coming Saturday, it would be much more simpler and have dessert at Snowflakes, hehe, still remember that place? This time Elisa will be present, i think Seng Peng would make it as well? i dont really know about the details for this time.

This break was short. Initially i desperately hoped that it would not come to an end. Yesterday i just changed up my mind, keeping myself busy is not as bad as what i think. It does exhaust me physically, at least it does not torture my brain. Hmm..it did seem like i did not use my time wisely, at least i slightly gain the trust from my mother? i chose to stay at home as much as i could so that she did not think something which it does not exist in my mind at all. Having productive talk ( ? ) with her mostly everyday thus from there she could understand me better. For your information, she was being so worried since i moved in to my hostel. Did i just make her to feel insecure? hmm.. anywhere, everything's clear right now.

malignant tumour. Pray hard. May all my merits been transfered to her though it isnt much. May she be able to keep herself from both mental and physical sufferings. May she be well and happy always. Stay strong.

They are cute. hehe..You girls are good! Not like me! i had fell down for 18 times in my 1st time of ice skating. Next time we shall go again. =D.

A cap, a sweater a torn out jeans and a top were for yesterday. i did not believe that i had such courage to try this kind of wearing out. Quite suprised by myself. i did something which i am not used to it. NO CAMHOR HERE PLEASE.

Fine, just gave myself a try. =) then, let's get back to normal. 

i shall go back to study now. Last word, thank you for encouragement. =D i am trying my best to make improvement.

when future meets the past

Future:'' i would like to know more about you. ''
Past:'' i am willing to share with you about all of mine. ''
Present:'' Past is the past, Future shall not know too much of it, let it go and get a new start. ''

Future knew the inner thought of the Present, Future stopped to meet with the Past.

Past:'' Future shall discover and find out the new identity of Present without acknowledging the Past.''

Present found that its Future is a bright one.

Because i'm stupid

I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
you’re looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
only you, I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking pass, I’m still happy
even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m wiating for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping…

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

whoa~ the lyrics of this song is long. Hmm...im a fool, but i will try to let go. There will be no life if you keep clinging yourself on a person who does not like you right? haha. Anywhere, nice music, but the lyrics ... is the weather cold? i should put on my jacket. =)

Trap

random

hehe..this is not my topic that i would like to mention, just that i saw this image when searching a related image from google. It's too cold.

aih...hard to believe that i will use a venus fly trap in the end.

hmm... setting a trap again you are, another new victim i see. Best of luck from me.