fire

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my mom was right. something was missing within myself. she asked me to find it back.

'' where's the 'fire' within you? you have lost your heart arent you?''

will it be too late for this? so called a 'fire hunt'.

a friend said that im not the carmen she knew in the last few years. i am drowning in the sea of pessimation.

i give myself a limited time to get that back.

this is another kind of attachment, let it be a part of my training of the attainment of nibbana.